I have a joy in my heart that is overwhelming me! I can't really describe it or attribute it to any one thing except that God is doing a work in me and I am loving to let Him do it!
There are a lot of changes around the Weaver household, and great things in store. The kids are starting another school year tomorrow. Jim and I are working on a new recording project. I am speaking at a retreat in a few weeks. There is no longer internet at my home so we are becoming much more creative with our free time. Those are all physical things going on, but honestly I feel that the biggest changes are going on inside of me.
Different things have transpired over the years, I can't even really name them, that caused me to be very introverted and closed off to people. My selfish need to guard my time became greater than my desire to know and love the people all around me. My "introversion" caused me to be overwhelmed during long times in being in crowds (which I am often) and led me to desire time to myself more than truly getting to know people and find a true joy in being around them. It makes me sad to think of all of the time and relationships that have suffered or simply slipped by because of my own selfishness. Not only that, but my pride. I had a welcome awakening over the last couple weeks and I've decided I've had enough of my "own" time. There's some amazing people out there and I want to get to know some better!
I'm reading this through my own tears of regret, yet I am joyful of the hope and comfort that it's not too late for new beginnings!